Lately, I am loving Bob Dylan’s song “Oh the Times, They Are Changing,” featured Oliver Stone’s The Doors from 1991. I watched the movie since it had scenes shot in the Venice Canals. Other than the scenery, the movie is a big downer and I don’t recommend it, but the closing credits Bob Dylan song really spoke to me.
My life has recently turned upside down. My husband and I just moved from Los Angeles back to our hometown Fort Worth, Texas. We left our awesome place and neighbors, our amazing friends, my most excellent book club, work that we liked, and all the culture and fun of Los Angeles to take a stab at succeeding at our dreams.
It was a hard decision to make, but both of us felt that we had become somewhat stagnant and needed to shake things up. While the whole process hasn’t been easy, it has been relatively smooth, like it was meant to be.
So here we are, just going with the flow. Trying our hands at new ventures and opening ourselves to new possibilities, both which can be terrifying at times. Whenever the fear starts to grip me, I practice shifting gears in my mind from fretting about the future to just trusting the process, having faith that everything will work out as it should. We all get into the mindset that when we make a change, everything will immediately be perfect, but it’s just not so. All things take work.
Last year, the (brilliant babes) book club I am in read the book, “A Time of My Life” by Allison Winn Scotch. While it was a quick, easy and entertaining read, I was quite unhappy with the ending. It portrayed a girl who seemed to have it all, but felt unfulfilled in her life, then woke up 5 years in the past. She got a re-do with her old boyfriend, a chance to be more successful at work, and see her life in a whole new perspective. What she ended up learning was that she was the one that needed to make change in her life to be happy. That it wasn’t her husband, her small daughter, or giving up her career that had left her unfulfilled; it was that she hadn’t consciously made decisions based on what she wanted.
Once she realized that she had made all her decisions based on what she thought other people would approve of and that she needed to take control of her life, she immediately was snapped back to her “real” life. But her real life looked totally different, and was now perfect for her. What I didn’t like about the book was that she didn’t have to do the work to get the life she wanted, it just magically appeared. Life is just not like that. We have to make hard decisions and take difficult actions sometimes. Even though I was sad to leave LA, and it was so hard to tell my neighbors, my yoga teachers and students and my church family, I still know it was the right thing to do.
Now it’s time to do all the work to make my new life all that I want it to be! Anytime that fear pops back up, I just close my eyes and breath deep, with my rib cage expanding in every direction (imagine that an umbrella is opening) on the inhale, and compressing with my spine growing longer on each exhale.
I also love the scripture Hebrews 11: 1 & 3 — Now faith is being sure of what you hope for and certain of what you do not see. By Faith we understand that the universe was formed at God’s command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible.