Living Unscripted: One Woman’s Adventure Into Her Next Life

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Living Unscripted

Living Unscripted

I’m 59 and never expected to be divorced and, having raised a big family in the city I grew up in, to be still living there now completely on my own. My parents are gone and my grown children have opted for smaller towns. My father passed away this past February and my children suggested I take off and make a world tour of all my friends overseas… …In piecing that together in my mind, I imagined taking a boat across, as I did the first time I went to Europe with my grandmother, as a teenager – and in that vision, I imagined taking those first five days and writing. Writing about where I’d been, writing about what I want, writing about the crossing over from my past to my future.
In reestablishing myself as a single woman, I’ve made new connections with some fabulous women and realized I’m not the only one going through this; there are other women out there who are also on a journey to becoming whole again. I hope my personal adventure will help us all find humor in the aging process –and confidence in following our hearts. The following is Shaz’s first LIVING UNSCRIPTED blog. We hope you’ll visit us each week to follow her story and

Four years ago, I left a 28-year prestigious career in high-end international securities printing (brought to me by the women’s movement and Equal Employment Opportunity in the late 1970s) which graciously enabled me to raise my four children in a life style to which they should only be so lucky to be able to duplicate for their kids. All those lovely years of designer wardrobe, unlimited expense accounts, first class travel… and an unfulfilled marriage –remain cataloged in photo albums & a memory rapidly fogging over from post-menopausal lack of estrogen.
I made a brilliant mid-life career change back to my roots and am now a Broadway producer (my dad was an actor; I was a theater major in college).
This brave new career choice dresses in jeans and t-shirts, eats in diners, barely covers a monthly subway pass… and deals with constant nagging from my ex about how he’s not going to be responsible for supporting me now just because I chose a non-paying career. Show business is a crazy business and we’re all crazy in it but you’ll never meet a more colorful bunch of crazies. I’m living my passion surrounded by folks living theirs and having survived 31 years of taking care of everyone else, I’m waking up these days under the same rising sun as three of New York’s finest gal pal producing partners (+ 1 best friend) in various stages of “single again,” two major “hits” coming to Broadway this fall, a bevy of beaus –and an empty nest to redecorate in shades of moi.
So “yes” I say, lifting that glass to me, settling in, steam rising — I’m soaking, luxuriating in the moment and replaying the tape in my head of my son Mike’s voice suggesting when my daddy went in to the hospital last Christmas eve: “take off, mom,” he said, “when Grandpa passes, pull out the old orange backpack and hit the road – we’ll visit you where ever you are – just go…”
I’m shaking my head with a smirk… can I really do that? …the phone rings and I’m back on planet earth, connecting to my best pal, Karen, calling from her apartment on the other side of town. Turns out, she’s in her bubble tubby, a glass of wine in her other hand, candles lit… music playing – and at the visual of two ole gals on a wet rainy night soaking up the suds and taking a moment for each other, we laugh, set down our phones on speaker and chit-the-chat.
“I get it, God. If you’re listening, my script is unwritten and I’m A-O-K with that.”

  • Benji

    Lovely-keep it comin’!

  • Lori Lash

    Way to go Shaz. I’m sure you will have many wonderful adventures in your next life…enjoy and keep us posted.

  • Marli Hinckley

    You write beautifully, and tell it as it is. Way to go! The best is yet to come.

  • Clare

    I love it – I’m just a few steps behind you, and can’t wait to hear more about the journey from your past to your future!

  • Patty

    Love the writing and the you reflected in it!! unscripted livealog!!

  • Donna

    Great job here. I really enjoyed what you had to say. Keep going because you definitely bring a new voice to this subject. Not many people would say what youve said and still make it interesting. Well, at least Im interested. Cant wait to see more of this from you.

  • Naomi Primm

    My mom and I want to create a blogging site much like this for our website, I stumbled across your internet site trying to find some ideas on the theme along with design.

  • Mary

    Since I know you and your family and the situation, I know you have had a more than full life, great kids, etc, and you are embarking on this journey. It seems like we are all searching for ourselves, and true happiness. I am still searching, or hoping it finds me. Don’t think I am truly searching. We have a rat race. I truly hope you find what you are looking for, then you can let me know the answer.